p r o l o g u e
Every single day I wake up and see the world in its indefinitiveness. Time just laughs at me while I sit at my throne I call life, and death just sneaks at my back, once in a while, waiting for our meeting. I am nothing in this world. I am just a little voice shouting to be heard.
s h a d o w s
As of this date, my goal is to win from the lottery.
I hate routines. I hate waking up early in the morning and going to work. I hate commuting. I hate sitting at that workspace serving other people for eight hours. I hate understanding and non-understanding employees whom I meet every fucking day of this miserable life. And what do I get? Sure they give me benefits. Sure the compensation is competitive enough in the Philippine economic setting. Sure the work is not that hard. All I have to do is receive and issue. Receive and issue, day in and day out. What's so glorifying about that? What's so satisfying about this work? It is a thankless job most of the time. A pat at the back is all I get from time to time but that's it. That's just it. I hate routine so much it gets me bored.
Would somebody tell me the winning combination for tomorrow's lottery?
Posted at 05:18 pm by altkey
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After a week of Milenyo's wrecking storm:
Thank God electricity came in at Paranaque last Tuesday or else.. or else I would be pleading to Meralco for that juice of power. Unluckily, some remote areas are still in the dark. By now, they must have thought of something they can do without cellphones, TV, computer and the stuffs we don't really need but have been part of our miserable materialistic lives that we think we can't live without them. Cable TV is still out on some areas. Intermittent signal from the two cellular companies can still be experienced even here at ABS.
I have not seen it but I guess we have been on CNN for the last few days during and after Milenyo's visit. Sikat na naman ang Pinas! Some other countries are dying to get on CNN. They are staging wars, genocides, and assassinations just to get the attention of CNN's international coverage. Tayo nakaupo lang tapos dadaanan lang ng bagyo, instant free ad na! Anyways, I think we're back to normal. Milenyo was just a bunch of wind anyway so why bother. Hehehe. Of course I'm just kidding.
Will you be visiting us again? You're not welcome anymore, you maniac!
Posted at 11:41 am by altkey
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Who would have thought that a single typhoon, aptly named "Milenyo", have halted Filipino lives as we know it.
It all started dawn of Thursday (September 28, 2006). The rain was a typical storm "rain". It was not that heavy but it was continuous. At six, I received a text informing that non-operational employees of ABS were instructed to stay home. So, as an obedient employee, and not to mention laziness to work on that day, I stayed put. Hehehe. Electric power was on and off at that time. The power went totally off at about nine or so. It was the start of the twilight zone.
Rain, as I have said, was not that heavy. It was the wind that caught everybody's attention. It was more than a hundred kph I guess. The news was that Metro Manila was on blackout due to billboards that fell on electric posts and cable lines. The hotel I was in have no generator so I just slept with the hotel's complimentary candle. There was no phone neither because they have a Bayantel line. Bayantel, for your information, is one of the many sister companies of Meralco. Figure it out then. The heater was off Friday morning. I was lucky enough to get a cold bath. The water stopped falling after I got my shower. Whew! That was close! ABS was in a mess that Friday. There was no electric power so the generator set just in front of our office went ablare. The elevators at ELJ building began having problems so operation was also stopped. Executives were forced to use the stairs to get on to their offices. Hehehe. Buti nga! Pero kawawa naman si madam. SAP was down. LN was down. We were just waiting then for HR to announce a half day. There came no announcement. Electricity, SAP and LN went up at about three, ergo, normal operations. Badtrip!
...to be continued...
Posted at 08:07 pm by altkey
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Monday, September 18, 2006
I hailed a cab just outside ABS last night. Actually, there were cabs parked just outside Esguerra gate, I just have to go in at the first taxi on the line. I opened the door and found a half asleep grouchy old man who, I guess, woke up when I opened the door.
"Manong, Paranaque?" I asked him.
I didn't understand what he answered. It seems like he was mumbling something and he's pointing at the cab across the street. I have no idea what he was trying to say. I just thought maybe he's dtrunk and riding at his car would be a mistake. So I opted for the next cab. The first car moved forward. The barker asked the first cab driver why he didn't like my destination. They conversed for some time.
After a minute or so the barker said, " Sir, ok na daw po."
I told my destination to the driver and he said, "Dagdagan nyo nalang ng kuwarenta." which I answered with, "OK lang manong.
He asked for directions:
TD: Southsuperhighway tayo?
ME: Opo, tapos exit po tayo ng Bicutan tapos service road tayo sa kanan.
After that, silence.
But I really have to give my commendation to that driver. He's old enough to wear prescription glasses but he don't have any. More so, he maneouvered the cab gracefully between twelve-wheeler trucks without any problem on an eighty kilometer per hour. He'll just give me a heart attack if I stayed on the road with him. Thankfully, after two-hundred-fifty pesos on the meter, I paid him and he drove off.
He was happy because he got the forty persos extra. I'm happy because I'm safe. And to be fair, he was not drunk.
Posted at 03:13 pm by altkey
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Monday, September 11, 2006
Mental note: All bank transactions are up until three in the afternoon only. It includes Banco de Oro SM Bicutan branch.
I went there with my friend. I expected to get my trust fund but, the hell, it was past three in the afternoon already. The teller suggested I pre-sign some documents and I'll just get the check on Sunday. To make the story short, I did not get any money from the bank today. And to make everything clearer, I am here now at Netopia writing this.
My dial-up connection at home is disgustingly slow. Blast was supposed to give me fifty-six kilo bits per second bandwidth but I was only getting sixteen. Not even half of what they're selling. What the hell's going on at your site?!
Posted at 05:54 pm by altkey
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Monday, September 04, 2006
... conclusion of VMV at MMLDC...
She kept on talking about spirituality. She mentioned saints, and father this and father that, and books and authors, and cited stories from the Bible. Our facilitator on our two-day workshop is a product of Ateneo. Ateneo and UP are my dream universities by the way. They are my choices as far as my supposed education had been. Her name is Mila. She's intelligent enough to discuss profound questions and choices of life and read and remember the authors of what she read, I think, all through the day but I guess I should know better. Why? For starters, she's a Catholic.
Catholics are blind mices in the dark. They are bent on traditions outside the Bible. They love attention. They love praises from their fellowmen. They want side roads instead of the straight main road ahead. Their leaders are rented showmen who put on their white robes, speaks smoothly and walks gracefully among the very important people.
So, who is she to tell me to believe? You can go on talking about Him and His Son and the disciples and your supposed saints all day, all through the year but can you answer my question? Are you in the truth?
I was on your silly workshop for that wasteful two days hearing your sentiments and suggestions and comments and dramas and sideshows. I can get it all from watching cable. And would you puuuhhhllllleeeeaaaaasssssseeeeee stop or I'm gonna cry. Sure you have sense sometimes but you are and will be speaking before a crowd, please be responsible. Someone might believe in your craps and probably the next thing we'll all be hearing is a train conductor yelling: "Next stop, Hell!"
Posted at 06:04 pm by altkey
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
Last Wednesday I, with the whole of my Division, went to Antipolo. It was a two-day and a one-night company workshop. The HR called it Vision, Mission and Values or VMV for short. I went for vacation purposes only and not to take-up all the expected crap they'll throw at us.
We left the company premises some minutes past seven in the morning. It took us an hour more or less to get there. The coaster went smoothly on the traffic. The first thing we did upon unloading the coaster was check-in for our rooms. I was assigned with two guys with names starts with letter "J". Our room was not yet available until three in the afternoon so, like the rest of the group, I tagged my bag and left it at the Lounge Room... and off we went to the training room.
Before workshop proper, we were indulged to an airy and tasteless brunch consisted of tacos, soda and coffee.
The workshop wasn't that bad... and then I woke up. Here's what I really feel about it: A prayer at the beginning is all so natural. But when the person leading the prayer is not sincere, pretensive in any ways possible, slurry, almost just like blabbering words and talking at the air, I might as well stand, observe the room and just not pray. Hell to you! The first activity was watching a short, low-budgeted home-made film about some priest walking at the beaches (no pun intended) of China. Aside from poor acting and an obvious fonding by the priest to Koreanovela, Chinovela, and Latinovela, the film is a bore. A pigsty is a better watch than that. The second activity of the day was a total waste of time, paper, graphite of the pencils and crayons. It involves sketching a heart and a whole lot of knick-knacks.
The dining hall is a fancy place. The table is set with proper silverware, napkins and what-nots. Two buffet tables at the opposite inner side of the hall and waiters all over waiting the customers. It was heaven until I tasted the food. The food was, like the hall itself, fancy. Fancy in the sense that it looks good but it tastes like bland food. Crap is.... nahhhh... I'm just kidding.
The third and last activity of the day was a group discussion. There were six groups and I had to end-up with the group of our vice-president. The dismissal for the day's workshop was pre-empted with a sudden compound-wide power outage so the rest of the afternoon and early evening was spent on blurting out my life to my group otside the training hall. I was uncomfortable sharing my memories of my life but it was that or feel the heavy stare coming from our VP. I was exhausted after dinner. I went to my room and bolted for the bathroom. I pooped, took a shower, ironed my clothes for the next day and just rested. Later that night I went room-hopping and picture taking with friends.
... to be continued and concluded...
Posted at 09:13 am by altkey
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What have I gone through this day so far?
I slept at about almost four this morning because I downloaded a game called Badaz Poker in my cellphone last night.
I know how to play poker a little so I played. From what I know and from what I observed last night which confirmed what I know, this is how you play the cards: a pair can be beaten by a pair with a much higher card face value, which can be beaten by a three of a kind, which can be beaten by a four of a kind, which can be beaten by a straight, which can be beaten by a flush, which can be beaten by a straight flush, which can be beaten, finally, by a royal straight flush. After some gruelling hours playing with other three CPU players and after a one-on-one with a CPU player named Jinxky, the gender of which I can't really tell, I emerged victorious out of that den. Yeah, right. I won and guess what, my winnings is a bunch of pillows and a good morning sleep. What a waste of time.
I woke at about ten thirty. Lunch was called in by eleven. My breakfast is my lunch. I can really save some of the family budget by waking up late. After lunch I watched the American Dad and the Family Guy. The American Dad is a new addition on JackTV's repertoire of cartoon shows. It's a family of four unlike The Simpson and the Family Guy's five. The fifth member of the family household is an alien which spurts green gooh-like substance out of his body when he's upset. There's also the pet goldfish which talks and has the hots with Francine.
What will I do next? Oh crap! Any suggestions? I'm stuck with this life until when...?
Posted at 01:58 pm by altkey
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Q: Who's the 1st person on your received call list?
Q: What's your main ringtone on your phone?
A: Wooohhh! i feel good tanananananana...
Q: What were you doing at midnight last night?
A: Playing Micropool.
Q: What did the last text message on your cellphone say?
A: "kaw din.c",)"
Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A. Ahhh... mine...? Of course mine. I wasn't at SH eh.
Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
A: Puti kaso hinubad ko ngayon kaya wala.
Q: Most recent movie that you watched?
A: Kung sa movie theatre... Superman Returns at IMAX. Kung sa cable... Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events.
Q: What's the color of your bedsheet?
A: Yellow na may puti.
Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
A: Wala. Nasa bahay lang ako ngayon eh.
Q: What is your favorite part of the chicken?
A: Hita tsaka pwet!
Q: What's your favorite town/city?
A: Baguio City
Q: I can't wait till...
A: Judgement Day... hehehe...
Q: When was the last time you saw your mom?
A: A while ago.
Q: When was the last time you saw your dad?
A: Ngayon lang... kinuha ko yung newspaper sa room nila ni mama.
Q: When was the last time you talked to them?
A: Kaninang lunch.
Q: Who got you to join friendster?
A: Just my curiosity.
Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
A: Sitaw na ginataan, pritong isda tsaka hotdog.
Q: How long have you been at your current job?
A: 2 years and 8 months as of this month (August). Alam ko yung sakto kasi ginawa ko yung MBO ko kahapon sa office.
Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A. Cabinet na puno ng mga gamit, encyclopedia, pictures, etc.
Q: What is the last thing you spent over 1000 pesos on?
A: Sapatos ko na Skechers. Pudpod na nga eh. Kelangan bumili ulit.
Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
A: T-shirt na pambahay kay starrfish sa SH.
Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: Yahoo for my mails, Friendster, Blogdrive...
Q: What is your all-time favorite movie?
A: The English Patient as of now...
Q: Besides a member of your family, who do you love the most?
A: Si starrfish.
Q: Do you have any piercings/tattoos?
Q: What city were you born in?
A: From the beautiful city of Pasay!
Q: What is your favorite electronic gadget?
A: Cellphone tsaka PC.
Q: The last gift you received?
A: Shirt from starrfish... again!
Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: Upset meaning...?
Q: What is one thing that can always cheer you up?
Q: Are you a Mommy's/Daddy's girl/boy/girl?
A: I was a tita's boy.
Q: What kind of shoes did you wear yesterday?
Q: What do you wanna be when you grow up?
A: I wanna be the president of this fuckingly messed-up country.
Q. What was the weirdiest question u asked ur friends 2 days ago?
A. Yung alin?
Q: What are you gonna do when you finish this?
A: Post this to my blog.
Posted at 03:50 pm by altkey
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Everything happens for a reason. And something has to end sometime. Shit! Shit! Shit!
I'll miss everything. I'll miss our taxi trip from work to SH. I'll miss our stop over at the frontdesk. I'll miss our walk from the elevator to our door. I'll miss our hug inside our room. I'll miss our simple chit-chats while changing clothes. I'll miss our petty quarrels on who has to call frontdesk or Max's for our orders which we got organized by assigning you for Max's and me for the frontdesk (well, most of the time, you take the calls for our orders). I'll miss our dinner. I'll miss watching TV with you while eating our dinner. I'll miss taking a pooh-pooh in the bathroom while you iron our clothes for work the day after. I'll miss our cellphone games. I'll miss your Eskinol and masking gell. I'll miss watching David Letterman and Conan O'brien with you. I'll miss everything. Naturally...
I feel depressingly low now. This will end sometime soon.
Posted at 06:30 pm by altkey
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